27-Nov London
Stumbled onto this thought again during a connect with a colleague having Steve Jobs wallpaper. For many a generations, he'll undoubtedly remain an impressionable 'influence'...
However, does one aspire for that life? Many do. May be with all the right intent, however w/o much context into the person life, such fame seems to me as a (non-desirable burden?) side-outcome of pursuit of excellence/perfection. The point of contention being, how many of those wannabe are cognisant & willing to make sacrifices it takes. For me, am not...
One may contest, great people still solicit a worthwhile ponder even from cynic alike(i.e.yours truly)
Anyway, the point is for all the great leap of mankind it costed them dearly a precious asset - time. Instead I aim to toil my time on this planet like a commoner/invisible. 'Cos that allows for lot of trivialities which i find give meaning to a 'wholesome' life. Contrary to leaving behind a legacy drawing inspiration/awe, would rather return to soil with bagful of memories(as they say life flashes-by at last moments, so make it worth the view:)
Even a minor stoke of luck/excellence deprives one tremendously & at times irretrievably - School grades had to be slighted to maintain a persona to be a lookalike to most & have many a friends(yes - perhaps a personality falling),
College was bitter realisation that the curtains will eventually be drawn to aforementioned charade & alienated almost all of friends, including move away from home.
Now with Job - am writing this oceans apart from 'where I belong'
The point is am I even designed to play even a higher purpose,as being role-model to a social-cohort. Unequivocal NO.
I already lost a lot of 'quality' time - when being envied for college, little did they realise they were in other colleges meeting their respective life-partners, walking hand in hand, looking in eyes dreaming a future which most are currently living[drift - better 'ratio's]; doing other embarrasing-but- amazing college 'things' meant for that life-stage etc.
This isn't a regret as it was a choice & had inkling of these fallouts. However when people whine about career/salary, they comfortably discount the not-in-the-face downside of this alternate trajectory.
If anything my preferable orbit should include, but not limited to :)
+ with playing a better son(at least be able to hug & take care of parent, listen to them sufficiently),
+ meet friends at least once/alternate weeks to have aimless banter over tea,
+ be a sounding board for my sibling, create that special spark for someone,
+ be able to support a social cause
+ live upto motto of making everyone i meet incrementally happier - regardless (with smile either over my silly humor or even at unsuccessful attempt to it :P)
+ continue making interesting friends at work - the coffee barista, salad bar lady, the old cleaning lady, another old lady who cleans late night, cafeteria guys...etc.
Stumbled onto this thought again during a connect with a colleague having Steve Jobs wallpaper. For many a generations, he'll undoubtedly remain an impressionable 'influence'...
However, does one aspire for that life? Many do. May be with all the right intent, however w/o much context into the person life, such fame seems to me as a (non-desirable burden?) side-outcome of pursuit of excellence/perfection. The point of contention being, how many of those wannabe are cognisant & willing to make sacrifices it takes. For me, am not...
One may contest, great people still solicit a worthwhile ponder even from cynic alike(i.e.yours truly)
Anyway, the point is for all the great leap of mankind it costed them dearly a precious asset - time. Instead I aim to toil my time on this planet like a commoner/invisible. 'Cos that allows for lot of trivialities which i find give meaning to a 'wholesome' life. Contrary to leaving behind a legacy drawing inspiration/awe, would rather return to soil with bagful of memories(as they say life flashes-by at last moments, so make it worth the view:)
Even a minor stoke of luck/excellence deprives one tremendously & at times irretrievably - School grades had to be slighted to maintain a persona to be a lookalike to most & have many a friends(yes - perhaps a personality falling),
College was bitter realisation that the curtains will eventually be drawn to aforementioned charade & alienated almost all of friends, including move away from home.
Now with Job - am writing this oceans apart from 'where I belong'
The point is am I even designed to play even a higher purpose,as being role-model to a social-cohort. Unequivocal NO.
I already lost a lot of 'quality' time - when being envied for college, little did they realise they were in other colleges meeting their respective life-partners, walking hand in hand, looking in eyes dreaming a future which most are currently living[drift - better 'ratio's]; doing other embarrasing-but- amazing college 'things' meant for that life-stage etc.
This isn't a regret as it was a choice & had inkling of these fallouts. However when people whine about career/salary, they comfortably discount the not-in-the-face downside of this alternate trajectory.
If anything my preferable orbit should include, but not limited to :)
+ with playing a better son(at least be able to hug & take care of parent, listen to them sufficiently),
+ meet friends at least once/alternate weeks to have aimless banter over tea,
+ be a sounding board for my sibling, create that special spark for someone,
+ be able to support a social cause
+ live upto motto of making everyone i meet incrementally happier - regardless (with smile either over my silly humor or even at unsuccessful attempt to it :P)
+ continue making interesting friends at work - the coffee barista, salad bar lady, the old cleaning lady, another old lady who cleans late night, cafeteria guys...etc.
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